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the problem is that these people is consistantly following it up. i can understand why someone might lash out. but these peoplehas gone from being consistantly timid(in some cases,n ot as much in others) to consistantly monstrous and uncaring.

i can't leave my chair right now an d i don't know where my phone is.

i try to warn people how certain trigger me like this. regardless of whether or not i kill myself, something sedvere might hpapen to me. i have an auto-immune condition that is sensitive to stress.

the problem isn't with being hurt now and again. it's with constant hurt. basically, once you get deprssed enough and are unable to handle that, you start losing more and more people because people are wired to think it's not their problem if they trigger you and anything they do you you is your fault(victim blaming).

i can't talk to my parents, and htis is the other big trigger for this. my parents are extremely insensitive about my condition, about my anxiety and panic attacks. they go on about how they spend their life running around after me but if they can't show respect to my condition it ends up not amountin tom uch. my dad seems to be pretty much disowning me at the moment

and againm, he should know full well the consequences of his actions.

i've lost so many friends just down to depression even. and my own parents won't even understand me. they just etll me to "Pull away from things" when even if I do i only encounte rthe same problem somewhere lse.