Oh my god. Okay so I played through it and found quite a few gramatical errors
(such as 'Me and Skyy', or 'Her life was completely taken over my drugs', or 'it's been awhile since', or 'That's a little bit embarresing'...)
AND A LOT OF MISSING SPACES AND CAPITALS.
Yeah I'm a bit of a maniac over this sort of thing.
Also, I've have extremely bad clinical depression since I was 11- and I completely understand where Michael is coming from.
Though I have an extreme distaste for drugs, and I can't really get my hands on much alcohol- I have actually overdosed- been sexually molested- AND jumped from a roof. Not to mention my boyfriend was at times the only thing I could get any sort of emotion from. But I become so self-destructive, I always try to push him away and break up. Maybe Michael and I aren't so different... Not sure that's a good thing.
Yes this game triggered me! No, not in a bad way- (though I don't think you could say it's good?)
It just made me feel sort of peaceful
(after the tears- SERIOUSLY THOUGH)
. That someone else could understand that things can't just be fixed- that some problems will never go away, and that others take a lot of damn effort.
I love it when I come across games like this. Love doesn't magically fix anything. Homosexuals don't run around in rainbow onesies screaming about pride while fabulously whistling for their macho counterpart
to parade off with into the horizon.
(Though I was mildly disappointed that every guy (except Jose) introduced was in some way- gay...)
The highschool take was also interesting, but I can't help but feel like it could have been explored a little more. Especially Jose. He was kinda thrown in and ignored >_> I mean- highschool really ruined me. My senior years saw me at my worst- and I really lost a part of myself I don't think I'll ever get back.
Actually, there's a lot that should have been explored a little more. That journal, for example. It's mentioned once- and then (literally) tossed aside. And why didn't Emmett
check the pill bottle? All overdoses are meant to be reported to medical personell with medicines that are dangerous enough to cause those side-effects. I know because my psych was amazed I was still alive after my stunt.
Not to mention,
after he attempted suicide- who WOULD leave him alone? It's TYPICAL behaviour for people who do that sort of thing to act perfectly fine afterwards so they get the OPPORTUNITY to try again. (Okay so maybe it isn't obvious to others...)
Oh! My favourite quote was definitely when Michael said "Yeah, well not everyone realizes they're gay by magic."
It's so sarcastic and sassy and perfect. I remember when I did, one day when I was just eating, and I literally just stared off into space like 'damn... I like the same gender.'
IT WAS THE FAIRIES
The quotes that broke my heart the most.
"I feel like I'm starting to hate everything. Like I can't be bothered to do anything anymore. And I don't... Really miss the feeling of being able to care." On so many levels, I understand. I just do.
"I love you Michael, I really do, I just can't trust you anymore."
- which hit a really personal chord for me.
And "A next time... Even when that next time... Feels like it'll be really far away."
"Help him find someone else that he can be happy with. I just want everyones lives to be better... Because life... Is so much better without me."
Personal, touching, depressing...
Another was definitely the scene where Michael is in the coma, after Skyy comforted Emmett, where Emmett says "She says that she knows you'll pull through. I don't know if you can hear me Michael, but if you can... I have faith in you too." and "My mom always used to tell me, There are some things we can't do by ourselves."
I dunno man. The tears though.
Anyway it's almost mid-day, and I haven't slept for three days and I released my first ren'py game so I should be celebrating but I chose to play your game instead, despite knowing it would probably trigger me. (Totally a compliment)
Sorry for the random post but I'll go roll my face over my keyboard for a half-hour... Or sleep. Yeah.