Get that thing off your chest... Now...

[ofdawnandtwilight]

My grandmother just passed away two days ago. I've always thought that I cry for people just because I'm obligated to, how everyone else cries so I just cry too. I thought I'd be fine about it after one day since I consider myself some sort of freak who doesn't know how to 'family' but now I just randomly cry and I can't function properly. I'm finding ways to cheer myself up or distract the least but no games are fun and everytime I draw, my hand trembles and I would just break down. The important exam I'm having this year is in a week and I can't pick up my book. All the things and projects and games I plan to do after the exam now seems so meaningless and I feel like everything I do is wrong now. I'm so problematic and I keep messing everything up. I hope I can get better soon, I feel terrible.

[Morhighan]

My grandmother just passed away two days ago. I've always thought that I cry for people just because I'm obligated to, how everyone else cries so I just cry too. I thought I'd be fine about it after one day since I consider myself some sort of freak who doesn't know how to 'family' but now I just randomly cry and I can't function properly. I'm finding ways to cheer myself up or distract the least but no games are fun and everytime I draw, my hand trembles and I would just break down. The important exam I'm having this year is in a week and I can't pick up my book. All the things and projects and games I plan to do after the exam now seems so meaningless and I feel like everything I do is wrong now. I'm so problematic and I keep messing everything up. I hope I can get better soon, I feel terrible.

People experience grief in different ways. When my dad died, I didn't cry for about a month, and then it all hit me at once. Best wishes to you and your family.

[Caveat Lector]

Everyone grieves differently and you should never feel bad for whatever emotions may come. Take care.

[ofdawnandtwilight]

^ Thank you, I do feel a bit better now. I just hope that it wouldn't still affect me that bad for so long especially since I need to prepare for my exams :'D Thank you again!

[breadslam]

I wish the best for you and your family. My own grandfather went through a lot in his life, and when I asked him how he kept going he gave me a few words of advice.

"The first time you grieve is just as bad as the last, but you don't know that until you make it out that sadness doesn't last and your happy memories do. There's this part of you that keeps everything good about your time on Earth, all your joy with those you lose, and makes sure it keeps on being wonderful."

It's roughly translated from Hebrew and a little fuzzy, but I remember what he said and how he said it. Even though he's been gone for almost ten years now, I still can still see him like he was that day.

[mugenjohncel]

OMG! MY TWITTER ACCOUNT WAS SUSPENDED!!!

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

I swear I wasn't retweeting NSFW images of naked hunks to... oh wait!...

Upon further inspection it seems one of the apps connected to my twitter did something pretty malicious and I got dragged along with it so I'm still waiting for restoration and stuff but damn... I don't even use Facebook so screw them but Twitter was like my daily source of entertainment... 48 hours... BAH! OK I wait...

"POOF" (Disappears)

[meiri]

I'm just really tired and I think that's reason enough to be sad.

[ofdawnandtwilight]

@breadslam: I could really relate to your late grandfather's words, thank you so much for sharing them. I have to plant them in my mind so that whenever something similar to this happens again, I won't be as messed up as right now.

Thank you again for all of the wishes everyone gave me, they mean so much, you have no idea. Now I just hope that my mom will feel better too. And God forbid me from crying every night for being so unprepared for my exams.

[Hijiri]

This last week was nothing but bug fixes for my release. The odd thing is that the bugs never showed up during beta testing. The ride never ends!

[curry nochi rice]

I'm a dilemma of replacing the icons I'm using with newer ones because... I can't find the original source. I mean I don't know who to attribute it to.

[Morhighan]

My writing is really bare-bones and nondescript. I need to fix it, but it's hard. ;A;

[MaiMai]

I've finally gotten the hang of crocheting after all these years, but it's also really, really distracting. I get lost in repetitive work.

[Kate]

Stress has been building up from a)still living with my family while going to college; b)school work and c) my job's hassles and requirements, which all built up and ended with me having a meltdown over losing my name tag for work earlier. It'll be embarrassing to ask my boss for ANOTHER name tag because i lost my second one. Not to mention the stress of not being able to remember where I put things, even when I KNOW I put them somewhere they should go/safely stored... I'm starting to realize I have had OCD tendencies for a while and I may actually have it and that may be the cause of my problems.

[thebackup]

Couldn't sleep last night. Kept waking up in the middle of the night with stomach cramps. I seriously considered staying home from work, but I sucked it up and spent the entire day at work feeling sleepy (no cramps though). Gosh, that felt like working grave shift...

[nebulaway]

i really wish i could stop being so shy and talk to people. i really want to get to know people and be friends with them but i always get so paranoid that they don't like me or find me annoying. it sucks. i wish i was over this. :'\