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#4486 Post by Kuroneko_rg » Thu Dec 04, 2014 1:32 am

It's been a long time since my last post on this forum. If anyone remembers me, hiii! I've been lurking from time to time but could not bring myself to write here.
Now, as the end of the year approaches, I find myself strugling with a couple ghosts. Ever since I failed on the projects I once presented here, the shadow of the many reasons behind their closure has been haunting me.

I've tried multiple times to restart myself, going to the basics, work on smaller things, help a friend on his own projects. However, every time I end up losing confidence and my determination goes down. The last episode was a couple months ago. I decided to draw again and try to regain my skill and improve if possible. To my surprise, found that spark I thought lost and trully enjoyed the time working on my characters. Even so, my drawing skills inproved beyond my craziest expectation. But it didn't last long. My last picture remains unfinished as I find myself unable to grab the pencil again.
That was probably two months ago. I thought to myself "Is fine, I improved my skills, and have my characters done!". After all I can't ignore the progress I've made, even if I'm stuck at the moment. Then I decided to go into my writing. My ability to write was the part that suffered the most from my projects' death. I could find myself writing all day long, on a PC, my phone, a piece of paper. Ever since however, I seem to be unable to write a story, and that hurts my heart.
The reason I'm writing here right now is because I'm currently staring at the open word file unable to type a single thing on it. Maybe I'm depressed and need help or maybe I need to try harder. I really don't know. All I know is that I'm not giving up, even though by now everything I try seems to be a painful road. I want to finish my work. I dedicated so much on it I can't just quit. I'm certain I'll find a way to end it, be it a VN, a novel or a comic or whatever form it takes. Maybe then, I'll be able to move on.

Anyway, thank you for the space and sorry for the text wall. If anyone remembers me and ever wondered where did I go, I might be lurking in the shadows but I'm not down yet.

P.S. I'm glad to still see so many people working on this forum. It's always a source of inspiration.

Edit: Aaaaand 300. Wow.

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Re: Get that thing off your chest... Now...

#4487 Post by Lesleigh63 » Fri Dec 05, 2014 6:37 pm

Kuroneko_rg wrote:The reason I'm writing here right now is because I'm currently staring at the open word file unable to type a single thing on it. Maybe I'm depressed and need help or maybe I need to try harder. I really don't know. All I know is that I'm not giving up, even though by now everything I try seems to be a painful road. I want to finish my work. I dedicated so much on it I can't just quit. I'm certain I'll find a way to end it, be it a VN, a novel or a comic or whatever form it takes. Maybe then, I'll be able to move on.
I think a lot of people have abandoned projects sitting on their PCs - even people you'd consider successful who continuously produce work. You'll find quite a few posts under the 'Creators' section about the issues you're going through. There's one about feeling the work you're producing not being good enough, and most people (even those successful ones) felt this too. Try reading through the forums and you'll find you're not alone.

As for the blank page you're staring at - OookamiKasumi has some writing and plot tips on her deviant art page http://ookamikasumi.deviantart.com that might help. I like to do some reading about writing when I get stuck and try using some of the tips for character sheets etc to see if that gets the words flowing again. Just don't give up. Keep plodding away.
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#4488 Post by Hachiko » Sat Dec 06, 2014 6:14 am

So I have messaged a certain game maker about a project she made years ago and asked for the source of her music she used in her game (she had a music list somewhere, though the composer of the song changed his name I think so I couldn't search the music myself and wanted to ask if she still has it in her files).

I saw her last log in was a couple of days later so she could have seen the message. It would have been nice if she simply just said she doesn't have the music file or something, just, say anything. :/

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#4489 Post by curry nochi rice » Sat Dec 06, 2014 10:43 am

>draws a character during class hours
>redraws the same character for the sake of corrections
>corrections turn out bad
>redraws the same character again
>okay, improving... though still bad
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#4490 Post by meiri » Sat Dec 06, 2014 9:30 pm

My hearing just keeps getting worse. I've had one specialist to admit I need a hearing aid while all others say:
- You might need it, but we're not prescribing it to you because you're just too young.
- We don't want to put you through that whole process because you may just decide you don't need it.
- Are you SURE its just not earwax? (funniest thing is, she said this right after they checked my ears for it)
- I have a feeling you're just being selective with your hearing.
- You're just too young. We should try looking at some others solutions...
- If the problems were that serious, your performance in your studies should have declined, don't you think?

Part of me understands the reactions, but at the same time, I can not be the only person they've EVER seen who is my age and says they need a hearing aid. I am not being melodramatic. I have an issue and I'd like for once to be treated as if it is a valid issue. I have grown very sick and tired of saying "What?" and "Huh?" 5-10 times before I can actually hear someone.
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#4491 Post by JumpJump » Sat Dec 06, 2014 10:07 pm

meiri wrote:My hearing just keeps getting worse. I've had one specialist to admit I need a hearing aid while all others say:
- You might need it, but we're not prescribing it to you because you're just too young.
- We don't want to put you through that whole process because you may just decide you don't need it.
- Are you SURE its just not earwax? (funniest thing is, she said this right after they checked my ears for it)
- I have a feeling you're just being selective with your hearing.
- You're just too young. We should try looking at some others solutions...
- If the problems were that serious, your performance in your studies should have declined, don't you think?

Part of me understands the reactions, but at the same time, I can not be the only person they've EVER seen who is my age and says they need a hearing aid. I am not being melodramatic. I have an issue and I'd like for once to be treated as if it is a valid issue. I have grown very sick and tired of saying "What?" and "Huh?" 5-10 times before I can actually hear someone.
My heart go's out to you.

It not nice going for tests and exams only to have the doctors turn round and showing how little investment they have with helping you. I've been there. I had a GP once who was really condescending with me and in the end I demanded to have a new GP. She also said that "You are too young to be having this kind of problem!" and to that reason, believed that there was nothing wrong. Makes me wonder why she became a doctor in the first place. I'm stuck in the rut of not knowing what is wrong, but there is something going on and I might just have to put up with it for the rest of my life. I keep thinking that I can deal with it, but on some nights when the pain get to much I get the "smart" idea that if by using a very sharp and jagged object, I could just remove the problem myself. At that point I force myself to get some sleep.
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#4492 Post by Shinoki » Sat Dec 06, 2014 10:15 pm

When you're a teen, people say that feeling like you're gay is just a part of well, puberty... but when you actually go through puberty, it's such a pain because... well, I find girls attractive despite being a girl. I act like a guy, a lil pervy and whatnot. (though i guess I also act like a typical perv otaku weirdo since I do love 2-D girls more openly than 3-D girls because well, reality vs the internet... internet friends tend to be more open to liking the same gender) I dunno if it's just puberty; I don't really care, but coming out and just saying it seriously without pretending to be joking is amazingly difficult especially when it's a person like me who is really sensitive to what people close to me say (in real life)... Plus, my family is all Christian and the church that they go to...kind of has a lot of homophobic people or it seems.

Ugh...well, I'm not going to change myself for the sake of other people when it's this type of thing, but I kind of hope I can just tell them eventually... *sighs* *heads to the 2-D world*

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#4493 Post by baabaa » Sun Dec 07, 2014 7:42 am

Man, I want to start a project so badly but plagued with a habit of procrastination as well as worry and confusion, I don't know how far it'll get. I want to work with someone else on this project I have but I currently don't know anyone to work with. Sigh.

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#4494 Post by Nekomiira » Sun Dec 07, 2014 11:17 am

So my little brother stole money from me today :/
It wasn't a little sum either, but I won't say how much. The worst part is he tried to deny it, and it took both my parents to get him to confess and finally return me my money.
I seriously feel betrayed. :(
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#4495 Post by Caveat Lector » Thu Dec 11, 2014 8:38 pm

I'm going to ask a really stupid question: If someone wears Ugg boots or listens to Justin Bieber or has a different diet that's not "cool mainstream diet" (vegetarian, vegan, kosher, no beef, gluten-free, etc.) or basically enjoys anything you don't without getting your permission to enjoy it...why does that matter?
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#4496 Post by MaiMai » Thu Dec 11, 2014 9:58 pm

Caveat Lector wrote:I'm going to ask a really stupid question: If someone wears Ugg boots or listens to Justin Bieber or has a different diet that's not "cool mainstream diet" (vegetarian, vegan, kosher, no beef, gluten-free, etc.) or basically enjoys anything you don't without getting your permission to enjoy it...why does that matter?
In theory it shouldn't. Ugg boots and different diet aside though, Bieber is not a musical artist I would think of supporting, but that's just getting into celebrity drama territory. If we're just talking music then yeah, shouldn't matter either.
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#4497 Post by Shinoki » Thu Dec 11, 2014 10:58 pm

All my grades are high As... except for math.... which is failing to meet so-called 'Asian standards' for Asian Americans in my age group...

I hate the fact that being Asian means that you're pressure to work harder and just getting a low A is something that one'll be afraid of others laughing over (even though the people around me are really nice and don't laugh about my test scores, which can get into Bs and Cs sometimes)

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#4498 Post by curry nochi rice » Fri Dec 12, 2014 12:04 am

So I was invited by my professor to present my project to one of her first-year classes.
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:v I don't know if it ended good. I do know that I'm a hundred percent sure to **** things up on my final defense since wow playing through 66 days of scenario? :v
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#4499 Post by Akai85 » Fri Dec 12, 2014 10:59 am

I have serious memory problems which makes remembering anything I haven't done say... 1000+ times really hard for me - nah, scratch that, impossible. Recently I feel like It's been getting a bit better... I can even remember what I was actually looking at online over the last couple of days but I wonder if there is a treatment...? Because I have looked around and haven't found one. For now, I started to take fish oil tablets and they are helping.

It used to be so bad that when studying I wouldn't remember the line I'd just read and the next day I'd already forgotten everything. I'm amazed I even managed to pass high school. :?

Now I want to do another course... but I'm worried... I also have some other health issues... it's very exhausting. And because of my health I always used to feel tired and couldn't concentrate... though recently it does seem like there's an improvement. (Hallelujah)
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#4500 Post by MaiMai » Sun Dec 14, 2014 3:14 am

I let my apathy towards school work get to me this semester and now I'm afraid I'll have to retake a course again. It's credit/no credit, but even then I didn't put enough effort. It's making me hate myself and I hate how I allowed myself to slack off so much.
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