Get that thing off your chest... Now...

[Zelan]

I'm sure most people don't have to guess what's on our mind right now. So, in order to not actually delve into it, let me just say this: Let's keep our compassion and humanity no matter what happens, no matter what it seems like other people might be thinking. Who knows, this could end up being decently uneventful.

My thoughts exactly. Nothing's actually happened yet. We should wait and see if anything does before we start freaking out.

[Dreamgazer]

I'm sure most people don't have to guess what's on our mind right now. So, in order to not actually delve into it, let me just say this: Let's keep our compassion and humanity no matter what happens, no matter what it seems like other people might be thinking. Who knows, this could end up being decently uneventful.

My thoughts exactly. Nothing's actually happened yet. We should wait and see if anything does before we start freaking out.

I just want to chime in agreement. If anything does happen, let's be sure we all have each other's backs and support one another.

[BáiYù]

Nothing's actually happened yet.

Nothing close to you yet maybe. I was at a Social Services office yesterday and the side conversations happening around me made me feel even more sick than before. Too many whispers of guns and "cleansing" and getting alone with women. I met two old friends, a lesbian couple, on my way out. They were terrified and trying to get back into our mental health program in case something happened. There was even a guy attacking a driver for no reason.

And take a look at the news: white students in a Southern school calling their black classmates the N-word, "cotton picker," etc. They're drawing swastikas and heiling Hitler. Which school is this? Far too many for me to list now. Outside of schools, there's been violence against a trans war veteran, hijabs being ripped off womens' heads, groups of white men intimidating a black woman by showing her their firearms. That's just a sample of what's to come.

It's happening alright.

I just hope that I can find the strength to gamedev again soon, the least I can do now is write a happier story.

[NialGrenville]

This makes me incredibly sick. What makes people think that they have the right to do this?

Do they think this event in time is really removing all laws from them? What a crazy group of people! I swear, the idiotic attitude people have some times.

Its not even the people in the event that's causing this. Its the pure breed evil people. They dare think that they have the ability to be above the law? While I'll never understand today's social justice. I do understand civility and having a filter.

For others to prance about saying awful things about women; making fun of a different race; and whatever that "cleansing" is. (I'm sure it's garbage too.) Is just downright wrong, and evil. We're supposed to be kind to one another. What happened to human compassion?

Without it we're nothing but hateful beings that desire nothing but good for ourselves. How pathetic! Injustice is running rampant: Poor are ignored; Races are discriminated; Selfishness is dominant; People are cheated. It's so... Sad...

[RotGtIE]

Politics are off-topic for this forum, folks. You have pretty much the entire rest of the internet to talk about this on.

Not my policy, but you guys are flirting with getting a 340-page thread locked.

[NialGrenville]

I'm just talking about human condition. Why does everyone feel like they have the right to act awful? (I say everyone in a general sense)

I guess this is just something that can't be properly vented.

It's just disheartening.

[Caveat Lector]

I think we should step back and consider the meaning of phrases like "Calm down, nothing's happened yet!". This phrase is the equivalent of telling someone stuck on the Titanic after it's struck an iceberg, from the safety of your own warm comfortable house on dry land, "Relax, the ship isn't actually sinking yet, you'll be fine!". It's easy to say that, when it's not your ship that's sinking!

[Taleweaver]

Politics are off-topic for this forum, folks. You have pretty much the entire rest of the internet to talk about this on.

Not my policy, but you guys are flirting with getting a 340-page thread locked.

I don't think anyone in the admin staff is seriously considering shutting down this thread just because Donald Trump was mentioned. My personal point of view: This thread is for getting things off your chest, and I can relate to everybody who feels the need to voice concern over the election of a president as divisive as this one.

Still, the reminder that political discussion is off-topic for this forum is much appreciated, and I think anyone who felt the need to comment on Tuesday's election has had the opportunity to do so by now. So please, like Frozen reminded us, let it go.

Addition: In other news, Leonard Cohen died, and I'm incredibly sad that we won't get to hear anything more out of the pen of the only songwriter I consider in Dylan's league. Cohen's pretty much been the soundtrack of my teenage years.

[Zino]

Just how much toilet paper does my other flatmate use... it's like roll/day. I don't dare to ask, but I'm sick of buying toilet paper all the time. Also I'm so sick of being the only person in this apartment who does the cleaning. If it wasn't for me we would probably drown under this filth. Just clean the kitchen and toilet every once in a while too (not to mention I had to teach you how to vacuum and clean the toilet in the first place, jesus... are these people really over 20y old)!! Why do I gotta be so spineless I can never complain straight to their face...

[try10]

Just how much toilet paper does my other flatmate use... it's like roll/day. I don't dare to ask, but I'm sick of buying toilet paper all the time. Also I'm so sick of being the only person in this apartment who does the cleaning. If it wasn't for me we would probably drown under this filth. Just clean the kitchen and toilet every once in a while too (not to mention I had to teach you how to vacuum and clean the toilet in the first place, jesus... are these people really over 20y old)!! Why do I gotta be so spineless I can never complain straight to their face...

I can relate to what you're saying. I am the shy type who doesn't say what bothers me, but sometimes when I can't take it anymore I explode. Messy people are one of the things I hate the most and it's really embarrassing when you need to tell someone that he/she needs to clean up after themselves, but sometimes you've got to do it. Just make a schedule on cleaning days for everyone to see. I used to do the cleaning by myself because some people just like to live as bums (ugh, is it that hard to flush the toilet after you use it), but at least I asked for payment. If you're too damn lazy to live like a normal person and someone else has to be your maid then you HAVE TO PAY, or I'll take pictures of your mess and show them to the landlady.

[dorne]

I need to get this out of the way.

I made two mistakes which cost my business about $1000 worth.

One was accepting a job without a deposit, only for the customer's boss to back out on the actual order, even if the specifications were the exact same as what my customer wanted. Thus I have an inventory of goods I cannot sell.

The other is for trusting someone to pay on time.

I'm a naive sort of person, so I'm pretty sure I got swindled into accepting the terms of payment for an order (pay in 3 installments, small/big/big, in which my customer has since stopped responding after the due date of the 2nd payment). I had some rapport with this one too.

I'll try to contact my customer once week this month, but I'm not holding my breath. It was foolish of me to trust them. You can only trust people if you've got a leverage on them. It's a painful lesson I'm going to have to accept.

[fleet]

I need to get this out of the way.

I made two mistakes which cost my business about $1000 worth.

One was accepting a job without a deposit, only for the customer's boss to back out on the actual order, even if the specifications were the exact same as what my customer wanted. Thus I have an inventory of goods I cannot sell.

The other is for trusting someone to pay on time.

I'm a naive sort of person, so I'm pretty sure I got swindled into accepting the terms of payment for an order (pay in 3 installments, small/big/big, in which my customer has since stopped responding after the due date of the 2nd payment). I had some rapport with this one too.

I'll try to contact my customer once week this month, but I'm not holding my breath. It was foolish of me to trust them. You can only trust people if you've got a leverage on them. It's a painful lesson I'm going to have to accept.

If you have a contract with the customer who only made one payment file a police report, and take them to small claims court.

[dorne]

If you have a contract with the customer who only made one payment file a police report, and take them to small claims court.

Thanks for your thoughts. I'll consider this option as a last resort. I hope it doesn't have to be that way.

[mugenjohncel]

Ah... it's been a while since I visited this thread which I started and wow... how much it has grown... guess it's my turn to get "this" thing of my chest...

Let's start with the phrase my Doctor told me on my routine General Check up 2 years ago...

Sir, you have Cancer...

Hearing this from a third party perspective is sad. It is an effective plot device that it's been a staple of so many drama driven Visual Novels, Stories, Novels and even Movies and Telenovelas but to personally hear it and have it happen to me is... it's like a Death Sentence... my world suddenly become so dark, grim and kinda black and white... almost silent... there is a mixture of emotions circling around my head... panic, anxiety, fear, hate... basically unpleasant things. My immediate response was to google as much information about the Cancer I currently have. I started making illogical decisions in my life with the threat of death always looming above or in my case, growing inside my liver. A few surgeries later, it reached a point where it has started to manifest physically and more aggressive measures have to be taken... you know, things and stuff where it made your hair fall all over the place... literally. And like a cruel joke, fate has more in store for me. Midway, I suffered a stroke which paralyzed my lower half so not only I have a death sentence, I now am sporting a new set of wheels and pretty much bound to it. Oh and as a topping to the icing, my eyesight is slowly degrading... at this point, I don't care anymore... who knows how many more ailments I have... fuck everything!... I'm a Closet-Masochist... I'll simply take pleasure in this cruel joke fate has tossed at me.

What I didn't expect is how much impact it it will at the quality of my life. Before all this, I'm on what I can describe as a high point of my life. Call it from rags-to-riches if you will. Business is booming. I have everything I could want and more. HELL! I even have this fabulous shiny long hair that goes all the way to my waist... now that too is gone, everything is slipping away from my grasp. First, I was driven out from the very companies I founded. First from the board, then force me to sell my stakes to totally avoiding associating with me as if I never existed simply because I am too sick to do anything and nobody wants to do business with a sick person. So here I am Jobless with nothing to do and a sick body to maintain. No worries, I am smart enough to start saving for rainy days like this... well... that too is starting to fail as I go further, I found myself spending a whooping Php15,000 to Php25,000 in Medicines alone, this cost doesn't include my often lengthily expensive hospital / prison stay. Oh and my coverage can only go so much. They started making excuses to cap my claims and such. Fuck them! I'm now at a critical point where I nearly depleted my Rainy Day savings and starting to look at my retirement funds. It's a hefty chunk but it's for retirement and everyone knows using your retirement funds early will lead to unforeseen negative consequences down the road. Then again, I might now even reach retirement age. There is still the real possibility where I could simply drop dead anytime. Everything I have built up is starting to crumble right before my eyes... my Businesses, My Family, My way of life, My Finances... everything is starting to go downward. There were even times that I contemplate suicide to end it all... at least this way, no one will have to suffer anymore taking care and maintaining this bag of sickness.

After a lengthy internal reflection, I decided I'll see this through the end. I have taken the most aggressive treatment there is available to get rid of this Cancer, I'm wheelchair bound and I'll just have to "deal-with-it" I might recover my lower parts but that's a long shot so not gonna count on it. It's risky but I started chipping away small chunks from my retirement funds... and to supplement / replenish my now depleted rainy day funds... I decided to swallow my pride and start working again as a lowly employee / consultant in one of the companies I founded. It was awkward, really awkward. It kinda gets into your nerves the constant offer of help in pushing my wheelchair while stuck in awkward places. Sure, my body may be defective but inside is a brain with a lot of experience and knowledge you simply cannot dismiss... I mean "I FOUNDED AND STARTED THIS COMPANY" I used to be your boss, now I'm down here with you guys. Let's make use of this opportunity to get some productivity done... that's how I personally feel...

It's not all negative though. Now that I have more time in my hands. I started doing stuff I love, I draw more, I take pictures more, I browse porn more, I even started playing games for much longer duration... even go play online with a few people. As for my Cancer?... Fuck it! I'll go full aggressive on it and will not spare any expense... I'll sell my car, my house, my gadgets... everything!. Either I kill it or it kills me I will savor the fight and will accept the outcome... I simply don't care anymore. I will live life to the fullest as I can. Everyone dies eventually. In a weird almost macabre way of saying it. I might even be lucky. There are people out there who die without warning due to accidents and other reasons while I'm here with full knowledge that death is near so I can do preparations for that eventuality... yes, I still am lucky... relatively speaking...

Now let's go to this community called Lemmasoft. I'm truly happy to have been a part of this community. I witnessed it grow from an obscure hidden niche forum for OELVN's and a place that facilitates OELVN creation to the huge multi sectioned monstrosity it was now that caters to everything Visual Novels... and Ren'py... Lemmasoft has come a long way and deep inside me, I truly wish to see where it will go from here...

"POOF" (Disappears)

[nekobara]

@mugenjohncel

Life gave you cancer... What a bitch!

You are a brave soul, though, so you have that going for you. And you seem like a tough nut. You take your hardships and deal with them like a badass, am I right? With a good dose of profanity. How dare life screw you over? How dare cancer put you in a wheelchair and take away your fabulous shampoo-model-worthy hair? Well, though you may think less of yourself because of the things that were stolen from you because of that bitch of a disease, I think you still seem pretty awesome. Your awesomeness cannot be taken away so easily!

You also seem prepared to fight cancer and give it your all. You are a warrior. Fight-o!~

Keep doing the things you love. In your darkest hours, they will bring light into your desolate world.

Also, I'm sincerely sorry that life has screwed you over like this. I really am. Best wishes!

And continue to be your badass warrior self that I'm sure you are!