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It all started during my first year in college. I thought I was the only person in my HS batch who took I.T. Turns out there were 4 of us. One of them was a former member of my scouting outfit. Yes I was a boy scout, and she was one too. Though we weren't in the same class, I tried to make my schedule meet hers. I found out that she was spending her time in the same internet cafe as I am. We didn't really bother with each other's business at first but it changed after we both played COD4. I was rather shocked on how good she was in game. I mean I don't get to see a cute girl owning a whole internet cafe every day but I am now .

I started noticing my feelings for her soon after... maybe it was just puppy love... or just a fleeting feeling of admiration. It was made certain one day in August. It was their anniversary. I knew there was something off about this girl and her friend. It was like they were in a romantic relationship... but then they actually were in one.
I still remember that day.... It was raining hard. I was playing COD4 with a common friend but I totally lost it, I left the cafe without saying a word.

I don't remember what I did after that day. I don't remember talking to her. I do remember just walking aimlessly around the university. The rainy August weather even made it more unbearable, but then every time it rained I remember that she doesn't have an umbrella with her so she would probably get horribly went. Heck, this is probably why I also started liking rainy weather.

Months passed by and it was already September. September means semi-finals here, and the much awaited intramural (which offers grade incentives to students as long as they join an event). She was playing basketball again like what she does during high school. The basketball event was to be held inside the campus... regardless I was particularly not inclined to watch any school activity and so went ahead to volunteer as some sort of team manager. I was hitting two birds with one stone. I could be away from the campus, and avoid the dreaded sign-in/sign-out attendance system.

I continued avoiding her until finals. It was only that time that I could talk to her again since she needed help with her webpage project. I was rather astonished that she didn't really noticed the way I acted since the last time we've seen each other.

Finals was soon gone and second semester started. We were classmates this time... and this time I was sitting next to her. I continued to hold my feelings because, well they are still in a relationship. Her girlfriend was also my classmate in high school... which made things... kinda fucked up for me since she refers to me as father figure. It was not soon afterwards that her gf started calling me for her problems with her. Well.... I had to be neutral so I just advised her as-is. Occasionally I would get depressed from this and just ignore them both for days (and only to apologize in the end).

This ignore-apologize cycle continued on and on. It looked to me as if she doesn't care, or she doesn't really want to disturb me, or she shouldn't just enter other people's businesses but hey we're friends.. or so I think we were.

Fast forward to my second year in college. It was another August. They were both saturated with one another. We were all classmates in one minor subject and I got the chance to be in the same group as her... It was my chance to personally talk about their relationship. At first I realized it was really salvageable, but looking back at it now... It could have been worked out. After advising both parties to break up (despite giving me bad taste about it)... they did. They could have reached two years by then but no.

So it was just the two of us left. Her ex ignored us for months. It was even worst when she discovered that I had feelings for her then gf. Heck she even had our common friends ignore us. So we were stuck with each other... My classmates regularly tease us for it but she just brushes it aside... I, on the other hand was going further head over heels.

this is too long actually, so imma tl;dr it.